The state of the union..

Okay, let me start this post off by apologizing for being the world's worst blogger. The last six months of my life have been an absolute whirlwind and I'm sad that I didn't document my crazy thoughts throughout it all! So rather than rehashing everything that's happened, let me just bring you all up to date on the current 'the state of the union':

-I have graduated nursing school with a Bachelors of Science in Nursing (yay!)
-I'm now working on the unit I did an internship on last semester, adult oncology (double yay!)
-I moved in to a BEAUTIFUL townhouse with my two best friends (triple yay!)
-I'm waiting to take the NCLEX next week (singular eek!)

aaaand... that's about all of the major things I can think of right now.

Also, here's some (p)inspiration ;)
(how fun are daytime fireworks, by the way??)

That's all for now folks... But I pinky promise to be better about blogging from now on. :)

xo.

He's just not that into you...

Hello and Happy New Year honeycombs!

Once again, many apologies for being the all time worst blogger on the planet. I haven't really had much to say lately. I am currently on break from school and I can't tell you how many times I have tried to sit down and write something but I just can't come up with anything and to be honest, I will be surprised if I ever even post this that I am typing right now. 

Anyway, I'm watching "He's just not that into you" with my mom and I'm realizing I AM GIGI and I am proud of it. 'Hopeless Romantic' is the name and wearing your heart on your sleeve is the game.

I love that she never gives up hope in love... Regardless of how many times she is let down.

In other news, I start my internship in just one week! Words can't describe my excitement and nerves. I can work as little as one 12 hour shift every two weeks or as many as three every week. My goal is two a week, one 7 am to 7 pm and one 7 pm to 7 am. I feel like the experience I'm going to gain is going to be invaluable and I am so blessed to have the opportunity. So that's about all I have going on. Oh, and I'm turning 22 on Thursday! You better believe I'm going to be channeling my inner T.Swift alllllllll year long. You know, dressing up like a hipster and making fun of my ex's.. uh huh, uh huh.

Welp, that's all I've got right now. I'm planning on doing 22 number something post in honor of my birthday (on my birthday or tomorrow or after or somewhere around there) so I'll be back then!
Here's some cute pictures I've fallen in love with recently. (THANK YOU PINTEREST!)

 xo.

perfect timing

You are beautiful, you are smart, you are funny, you are kind, you are unique.

You are worthy of love and affection.

You are never too much and you are always enough.

You are precious--You are a diamond, a rose, a pearl, the most stunning of all God's creation.

You are worth more than you can ever imagine.

Worth more than the numbers on the scale, or the hair product you use, or the shoes you wear

more than how many girls wish they were you or how many guys wish they had you

...

Your worth surpasses all earthly things because in the eyes of The Lord, God you are loved and you are worth dying for.

...

Regardless of who you think you are, the reality is you deserve someone who would give up their life for you because you are powerful and strong and capable.

Read about the women in the Bible-- Esther, Ruth, Martha, Mary-- these women changed the world forever-and inside you, each and everyone of you, is a woman with that same power, that same strength, that same world-changing capability.

And your responsibility is to find that women and to set that woman free.

This is who you are.

...

I am a daughter of the living God--cherished, loved and adored above all things by the Creator of all things for the glory of Him who is greater than all things."

These are just some excerpts from this video. :) It has such an amazing and important message for women to hear and hopefully take to heart. It made me incredibly emotional when I first heard it and I had to pass it along to all of my girlfriends. 

I got an overwhelming response from all of them saying that it was perfectly timed and they needed it at that particular moment. 

How amazing is God at giving us what we need before we even know we need it? 

(my greatest example of this is my own salvation... I had no idea how dark and broken I was until I saw Christ's light and healing power! And on a side note, I will absolutely go further into this story at a later date because it is the best story I have to tell :)) 

xo. 

(p.s. I'm blonde again! Yippee!)

Cold Hands Warm Heart

Words can't explain much I'm loving this chilly weather. It makes life feel so cozy... I swear I feel more alive when it's cold out. Does that make any sense? Probably not. :) Hopefully the future me reading this will understand.

The chill seems to bring a fresh start along with so many new memories to be made during the holidays.  

I now am going to list all of the lovely things about autumn. 

-Crisp air and warm sunshine... ideal sweater weather

-The color scheme (blue skies, grey clouds, yellow and orange leaves, etc.)

-Balloons dotting the sky

-Cuddling up with blankets on lazy mornings (quality over quantity here)

-Daily cups (yes, plural) of tea and hot chocolate

-Stepping on crunchy leaves everywhere you go

-Pumpkin patches and corn mazes

-Haunted houses and halloween... if you're into that sort of thing

-Pumpkin spice flavored EVERYTHING

I'm 99.9% sure I could go on for hours and hours about how much I love autumn and why but I think I covered the basics. 

On a closing note: Everyday I'm blown away by the way God is working in me and through me. I'm off to do homework now. How wonderful is learning? Everyday makes me more and more grateful to God for placing me be in such an amazing nursing program and future career. He's given me a career in which it is so easy to show His love to His people in a completely tangible way... 

For I was hungry, and you gave Me something to eat; I was thirsty, and you gave Me drink; I was a stranger, and you invited Me in; naked, and you clothed Me; I was sick, and you visited Me; I was in prison, and you came to Me.' "Then the righteous will answer Him, saying, 'Lord, when did we see You hungry, and feed You, or thirsty, and give You drink? 'And when did we see You a stranger, and invite You in, or naked, and clothe You? 'And when did we see You sick, or in prison, and come to You?' "And the King will answer and say to them, 'Truly I say to you, to the extent that you did it to one of these brothers of Mine, even the least of them, you did it to Me.'

Matthew 25:35-40 

Isn't that just the best inspiration to care for others? How above and beyond would you go to care for Jesus? You can do that to each and every person and just imagine the smile it puts on His face. Having a relationship with Jesus is seriously the bee's knees. 

xo.

As of lately.. :)

Wowzaaa I am not a good blogger. I am so sorry, my honeycombs. I just haven't had the inspiration that I hope for lately! All I do lately is school, school, and more school related things. No complaints here, though :). I sure do love nursing school and all that is involved in it. I was talking to a friend yesterday about how close we are to graduating and that it's kind of a scary time! As soon as he brought up the subject I went on and on about how much I was going to miss school, yada, yada, yada... And he basically said I was crazy. Oh well! I love academia, what can I say? Also, God is doing such crazy/cool things with my future lately! I have no set plan, yet but options I hadn't thought of before have been arising and I am praying without ceasing about it all and I have all the trust in the world that He will lead me to the PERFECT place and situation :). Anyway, I found this cute questionnaire on The Happy Goose and felt as though I must fill it out. So here we go! Oh and here's some cute pictures from my insta-fun insta-life lately :) 

Making : good grades! And care plans :) 
Cooking : quinoa... always! 
Drinking : coffee with my creamer.
Eating: trail mixxx
Reading: textbooks and fanfictions. *insert ashamed face here*
Wanting: to get an internship on the oncology unit! 
Looking at: my ever-so-loved planner 
Playing: Parachute <3 
Wasting: lots of time :D 
Sewing: nothing... i don't know how :(
Wishing: there were more hours in everyday.. 
Enjoying: God's crazy way of changing my plans 
Waiting: to hear final news about the nurse internship!
Liking: my new unicorn sweatshirt.
Wondering: what will happen in may/june :)
Loving: my sweet, Jesus-loving friends
Hoping: i get to travel lots and lots next year!
Marveling: over God's constant kindness and the amazing nurses at the clinic i'm doing a rotation at right now
Needing: something sweet.
Smelling: some kind of scentsy wax!
Wearing: comfy sweats <3
Following: Jesus... always :D
Noticing: lots of love in the air
Knowing: there are limitless opportunities in my future...
Thinking: i need to stop being such a fickle pickle
Feeling: lots of love and loneliness. (weird, huh?)
Bookmarking: blogs! and cutesy clothes
Opening: my mind to a million possibilities
Giggling: at my own singing in the car :D

xo.

(oh yeah, I dyed my hair brown! Fun for fall, right? :))

One Tree Hill

This post will be a huge mesh of emotions and lessons I've been learning lately, none of which are necessarily related to each other in anyway (or are they...?). Just silliness going on in my little noggin from day to day. 

1. The search for love-- I would like to get this out of the WAY, right AWAY because I really wish it would go AWAY (you see what I did there?:/). The thoughts and feelings I have about this subject changed everyday... or more accurately every few hours. 

I go from thinking things like this:

to this quicker than anyone can keep up (including myself)

[^this will only make sense if you've seen the movie, you see they look really dreamy and in love but they aren't (she's mean and he's awesome). So this represents my thinking that romantic love can often just be a show and people can't ever be happy with the time and place that they're in. This kind of "love" is something I will NEVER settle for, nope not in a million years.]

So, there's that.

2. The ominous future...--My plans are still entirely up in the air. But, I am done trying to make them around whether or not I find what I talked about in #1. All I can do is throw away any plan that I come up with and follow what the Lord has planned for me. But how does one figure that out?? (any answers for this would be greatly appreciated) The only way I can imagine is that I continue working my hardest at all that I'm involved in and trust that He'll light the way. 

3. Becoming the woman of God I am intended to be-- a verse in 1 Peter has convicted me to no end lately an that is:

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.(1 Peter 3:3-4)

The first part isn't so much on my heart (it's more here for context) although I know it is important... I feel more convicted on the "gentle and quiet spirit" end of things. At first I read it and thought "I need to be more soft spoken and thoughtful about the things I say" but as I looked more into commentary on these verses I found that it isn't so much about what's going on outwardly and referring to a spirit as a disposition but your literal spirit (but the outward concept is something I will go into more depth on later as it is another thing I could use maturation in). But ANYWAY, a gentle and quiet spirit can only come through being at peace with the Lord... and common sense says that this can only come through having a relationship with Him. So;

gentle and quiet spirit--> peace-->relationship--> communication--> PRAYER

(prayer is just the answer to everything, now isn't it?) This is interesting because when first reading this verse, it doesn't seem like prayer is the key to it... but it is... because it signifies a relationship with the Lord and in the end that is what life is all about. So here's to hoping that writing this will serve to make the lesson of praying more become more concrete in my head and heart (and yours too, if anyone happens to read this, ever;)). 

4. Lastly.... two things; I have decided it is necessary that I grow in my eye brows more and all that decision took was seeing this picture. 

and... I may or not not have a new unhealthy obsession with One Tree Hill....

xo. 

Another Month Over...

And nothing has changed.

I am on a nice little two week break from school and it's been oddly just as busy as when I am in school! Lots of hours of working at the gym and running around town.

I don't even have much to say right now so I guess this is it for now.

Mood: (almost) apathetic.
^no es bueno mi amigos^

bleh. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel more wordy and write up a more worthwhile post.

xo.