perfect timing

You are beautiful, you are smart, you are funny, you are kind, you are unique.

You are worthy of love and affection.

You are never too much and you are always enough.

You are precious--You are a diamond, a rose, a pearl, the most stunning of all God's creation.

You are worth more than you can ever imagine.

Worth more than the numbers on the scale, or the hair product you use, or the shoes you wear

more than how many girls wish they were you or how many guys wish they had you

...

Your worth surpasses all earthly things because in the eyes of The Lord, God you are loved and you are worth dying for.

...

Regardless of who you think you are, the reality is you deserve someone who would give up their life for you because you are powerful and strong and capable.

Read about the women in the Bible-- Esther, Ruth, Martha, Mary-- these women changed the world forever-and inside you, each and everyone of you, is a woman with that same power, that same strength, that same world-changing capability.

And your responsibility is to find that women and to set that woman free.

This is who you are.

...

I am a daughter of the living God--cherished, loved and adored above all things by the Creator of all things for the glory of Him who is greater than all things."

These are just some excerpts from this video. :) It has such an amazing and important message for women to hear and hopefully take to heart. It made me incredibly emotional when I first heard it and I had to pass it along to all of my girlfriends. 

I got an overwhelming response from all of them saying that it was perfectly timed and they needed it at that particular moment. 

How amazing is God at giving us what we need before we even know we need it? 

(my greatest example of this is my own salvation... I had no idea how dark and broken I was until I saw Christ's light and healing power! And on a side note, I will absolutely go further into this story at a later date because it is the best story I have to tell :)) 

xo. 

(p.s. I'm blonde again! Yippee!)

Cold Hands Warm Heart

Words can't explain much I'm loving this chilly weather. It makes life feel so cozy... I swear I feel more alive when it's cold out. Does that make any sense? Probably not. :) Hopefully the future me reading this will understand.

The chill seems to bring a fresh start along with so many new memories to be made during the holidays.  

I now am going to list all of the lovely things about autumn. 

-Crisp air and warm sunshine... ideal sweater weather

-The color scheme (blue skies, grey clouds, yellow and orange leaves, etc.)

-Balloons dotting the sky

-Cuddling up with blankets on lazy mornings (quality over quantity here)

-Daily cups (yes, plural) of tea and hot chocolate

-Stepping on crunchy leaves everywhere you go

-Pumpkin patches and corn mazes

-Haunted houses and halloween... if you're into that sort of thing

-Pumpkin spice flavored EVERYTHING

I'm 99.9% sure I could go on for hours and hours about how much I love autumn and why but I think I covered the basics. 

On a closing note: Everyday I'm blown away by the way God is working in me and through me. I'm off to do homework now. How wonderful is learning? Everyday makes me more and more grateful to God for placing me be in such an amazing nursing program and future career. He's given me a career in which it is so easy to show His love to His people in a completely tangible way... 

For I was hungry, and you gave Me something to eat; I was thirsty, and you gave Me drink; I was a stranger, and you invited Me in; naked, and you clothed Me; I was sick, and you visited Me; I was in prison, and you came to Me.' "Then the righteous will answer Him, saying, 'Lord, when did we see You hungry, and feed You, or thirsty, and give You drink? 'And when did we see You a stranger, and invite You in, or naked, and clothe You? 'And when did we see You sick, or in prison, and come to You?' "And the King will answer and say to them, 'Truly I say to you, to the extent that you did it to one of these brothers of Mine, even the least of them, you did it to Me.'

Matthew 25:35-40 

Isn't that just the best inspiration to care for others? How above and beyond would you go to care for Jesus? You can do that to each and every person and just imagine the smile it puts on His face. Having a relationship with Jesus is seriously the bee's knees. 

xo.

As of lately.. :)

Wowzaaa I am not a good blogger. I am so sorry, my honeycombs. I just haven't had the inspiration that I hope for lately! All I do lately is school, school, and more school related things. No complaints here, though :). I sure do love nursing school and all that is involved in it. I was talking to a friend yesterday about how close we are to graduating and that it's kind of a scary time! As soon as he brought up the subject I went on and on about how much I was going to miss school, yada, yada, yada... And he basically said I was crazy. Oh well! I love academia, what can I say? Also, God is doing such crazy/cool things with my future lately! I have no set plan, yet but options I hadn't thought of before have been arising and I am praying without ceasing about it all and I have all the trust in the world that He will lead me to the PERFECT place and situation :). Anyway, I found this cute questionnaire on The Happy Goose and felt as though I must fill it out. So here we go! Oh and here's some cute pictures from my insta-fun insta-life lately :) 

Making : good grades! And care plans :) 
Cooking : quinoa... always! 
Drinking : coffee with my creamer.
Eating: trail mixxx
Reading: textbooks and fanfictions. *insert ashamed face here*
Wanting: to get an internship on the oncology unit! 
Looking at: my ever-so-loved planner 
Playing: Parachute <3 
Wasting: lots of time :D 
Sewing: nothing... i don't know how :(
Wishing: there were more hours in everyday.. 
Enjoying: God's crazy way of changing my plans 
Waiting: to hear final news about the nurse internship!
Liking: my new unicorn sweatshirt.
Wondering: what will happen in may/june :)
Loving: my sweet, Jesus-loving friends
Hoping: i get to travel lots and lots next year!
Marveling: over God's constant kindness and the amazing nurses at the clinic i'm doing a rotation at right now
Needing: something sweet.
Smelling: some kind of scentsy wax!
Wearing: comfy sweats <3
Following: Jesus... always :D
Noticing: lots of love in the air
Knowing: there are limitless opportunities in my future...
Thinking: i need to stop being such a fickle pickle
Feeling: lots of love and loneliness. (weird, huh?)
Bookmarking: blogs! and cutesy clothes
Opening: my mind to a million possibilities
Giggling: at my own singing in the car :D

xo.

(oh yeah, I dyed my hair brown! Fun for fall, right? :))

One Tree Hill

This post will be a huge mesh of emotions and lessons I've been learning lately, none of which are necessarily related to each other in anyway (or are they...?). Just silliness going on in my little noggin from day to day. 

1. The search for love-- I would like to get this out of the WAY, right AWAY because I really wish it would go AWAY (you see what I did there?:/). The thoughts and feelings I have about this subject changed everyday... or more accurately every few hours. 

I go from thinking things like this:

to this quicker than anyone can keep up (including myself)

[^this will only make sense if you've seen the movie, you see they look really dreamy and in love but they aren't (she's mean and he's awesome). So this represents my thinking that romantic love can often just be a show and people can't ever be happy with the time and place that they're in. This kind of "love" is something I will NEVER settle for, nope not in a million years.]

So, there's that.

2. The ominous future...--My plans are still entirely up in the air. But, I am done trying to make them around whether or not I find what I talked about in #1. All I can do is throw away any plan that I come up with and follow what the Lord has planned for me. But how does one figure that out?? (any answers for this would be greatly appreciated) The only way I can imagine is that I continue working my hardest at all that I'm involved in and trust that He'll light the way. 

3. Becoming the woman of God I am intended to be-- a verse in 1 Peter has convicted me to no end lately an that is:

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.(1 Peter 3:3-4)

The first part isn't so much on my heart (it's more here for context) although I know it is important... I feel more convicted on the "gentle and quiet spirit" end of things. At first I read it and thought "I need to be more soft spoken and thoughtful about the things I say" but as I looked more into commentary on these verses I found that it isn't so much about what's going on outwardly and referring to a spirit as a disposition but your literal spirit (but the outward concept is something I will go into more depth on later as it is another thing I could use maturation in). But ANYWAY, a gentle and quiet spirit can only come through being at peace with the Lord... and common sense says that this can only come through having a relationship with Him. So;

gentle and quiet spirit--> peace-->relationship--> communication--> PRAYER

(prayer is just the answer to everything, now isn't it?) This is interesting because when first reading this verse, it doesn't seem like prayer is the key to it... but it is... because it signifies a relationship with the Lord and in the end that is what life is all about. So here's to hoping that writing this will serve to make the lesson of praying more become more concrete in my head and heart (and yours too, if anyone happens to read this, ever;)). 

4. Lastly.... two things; I have decided it is necessary that I grow in my eye brows more and all that decision took was seeing this picture. 

and... I may or not not have a new unhealthy obsession with One Tree Hill....

xo. 

Another Month Over...

And nothing has changed.

I am on a nice little two week break from school and it's been oddly just as busy as when I am in school! Lots of hours of working at the gym and running around town.

I don't even have much to say right now so I guess this is it for now.

Mood: (almost) apathetic.
^no es bueno mi amigos^

bleh. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel more wordy and write up a more worthwhile post.

xo.

Travelling dreams and other things...

(in my head it rhymed :P)


So... I'm sick... Again. I don't know what the deal is with my immune system this summer but it is not doing it's job correctly. So, because I feel that sickness is an excuse to be unproductive, I have been daydreaming up a storm the last few days. I've never felt more confused about where I want to go after graduation before so for now, I'm just dreaming of going nearly everywhere.




In my perfect plan, I would go on a train all through Europe and see every dreamy village that has ever existed. But, since it's a long shot, especially for now, I go on a mental trainride by looking at these pictures (in no particular order :) )

Isle of Crete, Greece

Cinque Tierre, Italy

Venice, Italy

Lake Lucern, Switzerland

Zurich, Switzerland

Innsbruck, Austria

Salzburg, Austria

Bonifacio, Corsica, France

(and of course..)

Paris, France <3

 Eilean Donan Castle, Scotland

Wicklow National Park, Ireland

and to wrap this post up...

London, England (specifically Neal's Yard or Covent Garden)

And that's just scratching the surface. Naturally, I would like to stop in at every little cafe in each every tiny town. I wish I could spend my whole life just wandering around Europe... but then again that might take all of the fun out of it. Hmm... Well, *someday*. I honestly wouldn't mind going by myself... which might just be what happens; #foreveralone or as my friend likes to correct me #forevertoopicky.

In other news: I chose my fate for next semesters clinical intensives today. I will be working in Oncology for the first seven weeks and Adult Psych for the second seven weeks. It couldn't have worked out more perfectly! God is so good. 

Also, I read an amazing quote today: 

"If I could give you information of my life, it would be to show how a woman of very ordinary ability has been led by God in strange and unaccustomed paths to do in His service what He has done in her."
-Florence Nightingale, 1860

And with that I am done... for now ;) 

xo.

The (not-so) Shortlist

Whenever I express any concern over my future everyone seems to jump right to the "you will be able to find a job ANYWHERE with your degree!" And while I realize this isn't a serious problem, it still leaves me feeling very uneasy. Lately, I feel my heart and feetsies being pulled in a million different directions and I'm trying to tell myself, "let them be pulled"... All I need is to set a plan and then let The Lord take me where He wants me, regardless of if it's where I planned or not. But, I honestly feel that a plan is necessary, I need to be a go-getter!

That all being said, these are the specific places and options I've been thinking (and dreaming) about:
(Starting closest to "home")
1. Nursing Residency at UNMH or start-up RN job at another hospital in Albuquerque- practical, but I'm terrified of getting stuck here
2. Phoenix- close to some family... but still a desert.
3. Utah- interesting tug on my heart to go here, I'm not entirely sure what to make of it (honestly; it could just be the amazing love stories that seem to happen there)
4. Minneapolis- random, I know.
5. NYC- what an experience that would be...
6.  Hawaii- my brother is planning to relocate here in the near future, and it could be an amazing adventure and leap to independence but it would make the traveling I long to do more difficult than if I were to stay on the continent
7. MISSION WORK- my main thought on this is "if not now, when?" but I know I can't allow my impatience to lead something as monumental as this

and then there's all of the Southern areas that seem so dreamy but I can't imagine going to in any of them without a real reason for it.

DO YOU SEE WHAT I'M DEALING WITH HERE?

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell but seriously!

Thank heavens for God's grace and patience-- I just pray that He is glorified through my hot-mess of a life.

xo.

The secret to having is all is loving it all

God is so good and has been so gracious and kind to me with all that He's given me lately. And not that it's surprising but even the tough things have already been proven to be blessing. 

I'm trying really hard to look at everything with ^this^ in mind. But it's been tough to maintain a positive outlook without being fake-ly happy about things--especially in prayer. Prayers need to be honest; God already knows your heart but it's important for you to acknowledge your honest feelings so you are more able to see Him working on them. So, this is what I've been thinking about and the best "treatment" for me has been to start off with all of the good things I'm thankful for and then move on to the areas in which I'm struggling. This has helped enabled me to praise God for all things (good and bad) 

Why, my soul, are you downcast?
    Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
    for I will yet praise him,
    my Savior and my God.
Psalm 42:5

see why this is the perfect verse for these thoughts?: honest and full of praise. 

What I'm working on: humility

xo.

Time is flyin'...

I cannot believe how fast this summer semester is going by (not to mention the program in general). It is absolutely incredible. 

I have found the most treasured and fun group of girlfriends since starting the nursing program and they continue to amaze me with their Godliness and sweetness each and everyday. 

I can absolutely not say enough good things about them.

The summer semester (level 2 for me) is about half way over already and I start back at clinicals in the hospital on Tuesday! Ah! As fast as I feel the first half went by, I just know that the second half will go by even faster and that is leading me to start thinking/planning what will come after I graduate. It may seem crazy but there are only 304 days until I am done, done, done with school! The possibilities seem endless but...

As of now, I have no idea what I'm going to do and God has really been showing me how much I try to rely on my own reasoning and feelings and how wrong that is. 

As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways    and my thoughts than your thoughts.(Isaiah 55:9)

^I am meditating on this absolute truth^ and praying that He will help me see His perfect guidance and that he will enable me follow it with complete faith. 

xo.

Get over your hill and see what you find there...

I am currently obsessed with Mumford and Sons' "After the Storm"... I saw this picture on Pinterest a few months back and really took it to heart... 

The greatest part of this post though is that I can actually see/sense some amazing things coming on the horizon... fingers crossed that they aren't a mirage. ;)

today:wonderful

God:GREAT

always.

Best advice I've recieved via iMessage in my lifetime, thus far: "Girl, you better get on it and figure that coffee machine out. It is your duty as a Christian woman."

-B on 6/16/13 at 6:43AM 

xo.

Honeycomb...

All I knew about the title of this blog is that it should be inspired by one of my favorite guiding Bible verses: Proverbs 16:24

I am a lover of words... I love that the same idea can be said in an infinite number of ways and that some words can have an infinite amount of meanings. But words are only one section of my life's honeycomb... 

This blog is meant to record the little honeycomb cells of my life including but not limited to (<--this is the best disclosure in my opinion, FYI)
1. inspiring quotes and images (thank Heavens for pinterest inspiration, right?)
2. little positives (why be negative when there are a million and one more things to be happy about?)
3. sweet and silly things said by people in my life (everyone from grandma Jack to my nursing school classmates)
4. moments of pure bliss or even just plain old (wonderful) life
and of course
5. lessons from God because He is so good, kind and gracious in teaching me... always.

This is already so fun and I haven't even really started yet... It's like a personal diary made public--which naturally makes me think more positively about everything in my life. It also makes me want to do more things worth sharing. 

xo.

What's the point?

I'm 100% sure that no one is reading this and that makes me want to do it even more. I've wanted to write a blog for a long time now but my question has always been what's the point? So I thought very hard about it and came up with some points.

1. There are some things that no one cares to see on Facebook and most of the time they are too long to share on twitter... so I will write them here in my own little honeycomb hideaway.

2. What better way to put everything together... inspiring words and photos, wonderful memories, and anything else that makes me happy can come together perfectly here.

3. This could potentially always be around and when I look back in 10 years, hopefully having a big wonderful family, I can laugh at the silly things I found important enough to be posted on the internet.

4. I want to see overtime what little things turn me into the best me I can bee... (get it? because honey is in the title??)

5. Why not just a regular journal? Because this just seems like way more fun.

So, hopefully this works out and I stay on top of posting, just for the sake of making my future self smile.

xo.